October 2011
1 post
Run
Just feel like running away
Just feel like pushing you away
Even, even if it hurts me
Cos’ right now
i’m afraid of my own feelings
No matter how many times
i’ve said; this ain’t right
it just surfaces..
January 2010
1 post
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November 2009
9 posts
bloodymess
Feeling so down this month that i feel like rotting, dying away.
i’ve temporarily shifted.
complicated creatures; humans
should…
narrow-minded
Obsessed?
What about guys who watches every soccer match?
the testerone filled airport when liverpool came
gah. i don’t get these people.
rather than living life by what’s cool, what’s in, and what’s the norm, we only live once
i prefer mine. thank you very much.
it’s easy to be you, but it takes a whole lot more to be me.
Friends
“a person you know well and regard with affection and trust”
i have barely any friends.
99.9999%
hi, a miracle pls.
my first time watching a band concert overseas my first time chasing them till i nearly died from exhaustion my first time admiring, respecting and loving strangers so much.
and it’s my first time feeling so forsaken, down and depressed.
prove me wrong. i wish time can go back to 07. the year i saw you guys thrice. the year you guys were truly happy the year before...
HEARTLESS
i cannot seem to find my beat.
it’s a blame game and, i’m disappointed in you. i really am. then again, who am i to you that you have to prove me wrong?
lonely
it was a wuunnderful time meeting w angie, na and jan. and i miss those days TTM.
busy wkend blah.
selfish pigs.
whatever they say
it scares me.
although i am supposed to be not shock, but i find it scary. how accounts from different sides proven what i’ve heard for the past one year.. and how everything is falling into places. it’s like knowing your there’s gg to be an accident soon, and you can’t prevent it but to let it take place naturally.
oh my heart.
your lies.
October 2009
29 posts
time to sleep
I need a break from everyone. bye
boo.
Hierachy in fandom suck but i somehow feel that it is mandatory. :/// was reading the posts bout junsu’s cyworld, lmao.
i think intl fans will feel kinda unfair for being kept in the dark…
it’s a mad race.
and arghhhhh baby. D: need to tell you smth soon. remind me again when you see me online.
도없는 사랑을 아파하고…
your happiness first :)
sometimes.
i’ll just be so numb after absorbing the information.
the irony is i still love you. can’t you have more flaws?
why :/
Sometimes i’d rather not know.. it makes me fall harder.
your flaws made you perfect.
THANK EU
starting off w my famous expression,
not my cutest :(
THANK YOU EVERYBIRDY FOR MAKING THIS YEAR MEMORABLE. :3
i love you!
I grew fatter. oh man :( and my weighing machine ran out of batt one wk plus ago… and now.. i have no guts to step on it. D: even my FBTs are tight. fml
swollen eyes+ fat face = super sad.
and viewfinder is so gooood~
i'm broken inside. i'm dying from the inside out.
lovebot:
and i tell myself i am fine and i am surrounded by great people. and i am. but i see your face and i die a little more inside every time. i miss you.
i'm jealous
:(
there won't be another you
“TVXQ are Super Stars. They possess the ability to break cultural expectations, and their ability and performances as a team is something that has never been seen before in the history of South Korea. Maybe it’ll never happen again in future, another team that possesses such all-rounded capabilities might never appear again. How is it possible to be so well-rounded in everything, from...
;D
Sigh
i’m tired.
it is difficult to move on and accept someone new.
and.. birthday wishes never comes true.
Cycle
I am trying to fall in love this time.
HAHAHAHA :D
OH MY GOD, SUN! 说:
whyyyy??? D: wait, ermmmm. fml is??
ƃuıʎ♥uuǝʎ you’re my blackhole 说:
fuck my life
OH MY GOD, SUN! 说:
ohoh now then i know. OMG. dun tell anyone ok. hahaa
ƃuıʎ♥uuǝʎ you’re my blackhole 说:
HAHHAHAA OMFG im gg to blog it YOU DIE.
Handle with Care
Things break all the time. Promises break. hearts break..
IT's friday; 16th
i think i am going malaysia today evening :DDDDDDDD
and, i love you.
It's like PC and Monopoly
Happy day cause i shopped + new pillow + krn bbq (awesome!) + KOI
annoying cause it’s results week
honestly. next thursday is just the same as wednesday or any friday. if i’m happy, everyday feels like it’s my day.
the thing is after celebrating nth birthdays for past 18 years, it has never really felt like my day.
so..don’t ask me what i want, it just dampens my mood....
High on food
that explains it. i should stop eating
i am always waiting for my 5 stars to shine brighter.
Wrong timing
Of all times to screw up, i had to screw up my econs Promos. I am saying hi to my first S this year. fuck
“Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we...”
– Mother Teresa (via reluctantbuddha) (via quote-book) (via lovebot)
Sunshower
Everything I learned about life: it goes on. Everything I learned about love: it doesnt last. and Everything I learned about people: they change fast.
got it from fb.
was reading sunshower and my heart was bursting from emotions. D: It’s like a cycle you know and i’m quite sure i am not the only one who experienced it. There’s this angry YY, sweet YY, cheerful YY, annoying YY...
Bummin'
Ytd was a day well spent with my two aunts >3 Felt so loved because they just kept treating me to whatever i wanted to eat and i had satisfy my cravings. oh right, they offered to go korea with me when they know i am not going this year cause my mom is tight up somewhere. >3 so nice
i have been reading fanfic for i think 10 hours nonstop. Finished tainted memories of issey miyake, To love...
To Love Death by Skye
“This is the second time I’ve saved you from a oncoming car, Sungmi. Do you have a death wish?” “Of course I do, JeonIl. Who can offer me more fidelity than death?” “You scare me, Sungmi.” He pulled me up to kiss my face gently. “Promise me you won’t wish for death until I die though.” “What makes you think I should wait for you?” “Well, I’ve saved your life four times, including the two...
They say silent tears are sometimes the saddest…I think they’re right.
BLED
should i get another piercing?
HI TO FUN
HELLO PEOPLE.
I am free for booking for fun, laughter peace and joy unless i fail my promos again 8D Oh right. Chem paper was okay. like okay. sure got can do, sure got cannot do though i think i didnt really do my best cause i neglected studying the easy ones. lets hope i can meet up to expectations. Econs was okay for paper 2 cause i did my best. i actually put in 101% for paper 1 with...
Blues n Us
Bloody.
I gained weight from eating 3 mooncake a day, 6 daily meals and junk food. Why do some people whom i know eats like that and not gained weight?
Blooody. I am still left with 6 mooncakes and i am already damn sick of it. But when you take into consideration that it is 8bucks a piece, i have better finish it.
disgusting.
upset, blues and depressed.
September 2009
44 posts
10810.) Living doesn't seem so bad until I realize...
(via blogsecret)
“Sometimes we just have to accept that some people are going to stay in our...”
– (via runawaytrain)
OKAY. IM ON HIATUS HONESTLY.
I just thought of the fact that i cried last birthday. I am so determined not to cry this birthday you know.
And i still want to go to cruise, boutique hotel blah shit happily. so, i will study hard now.
never too late to start.
Best post-promos plan
Sleep at home, avoid the world. cuddle with dogs.
Accquaintances a plenty, friends are handful.
I think i will be more than happy with time dedicated to myself.
“Have you ever noticed how transparent people are when you really look at them?”
– Dodsworth (via filmquotes) (via fuckyeahzenmind)
Maybe i will be happier if i die early.
YY?
Why am i so ugly? Why am i so fat? Why am i not the least bit pretty? Why am i so incompetent? Why am i such a hugeass procrastinator? Why do i have such a face? Why, why why?
Do i eat a lot?
Okay, maybe i do. ARGH.
WEIGHT GAIN. WEIGHT, FATS, I HATE YOU :(((((( Let’s see i have been sleeping after eating for the nth time this week. My tummy is growing and growing. have eaten tons of fast food and i have been binging. I always wish i am broke, so i can’t spend money on food. I just spend 100bucks in two days, cab, majority food. it’s so annoying